One thing I don’t think people fully understand about perimenopause is how much time women spend trying to figure out what the hell is happening to them. At this point I feel like I should have an honorary PhD in: hormones nervous systems supplements sleep blood sugar protein cortisol emotional regulation and “why do I suddenly want to fight everyone?” Because honestly? Perimenopause can feel like someone took your body, nervous system, emotions and brain chemistry… shook the

Yesterday I had the house completely to myself. And honestly? I don’t even know the last time that happened while still being in my actual day-to-day life. Not a girls weekend. Not a hotel. Not a vacation. Not a curated little escape from reality where everyone comes home Sunday night and life immediately resumes at full volume. I mean real life. My real house. My real routines. My real quiet. I taught my 6am class at Edit HQ. Came home. Got Kieran off to school with his litt

After I wrote about the whole chin-up incident yesterday, about feeling gutted after looking at my legs during my workout despite objectively getting stronger, something happened later that night that I haven’t been able to stop thinking about. We were sitting at the dinner table and Jayden looked at me and said: “Mama, are you okay? You feel off.” And honestly? That immediately hit me in the chest. Because one thing I never want my boys to lose is their ability to trust thei

I don’t think people fully understand how emotionally exhausting it is to work THIS hard on yourself… and still feel awful in your body. And I know I’m not alone in that. Because the more women I talk to over 40, the more I realize so many of us are quietly having the exact same experience. We are trying harder than we ever have before. Working out consistently. Lifting weights. Walking more. Eating better. Drinking less. Tracking protein. Prioritizing sleep. Taking supplemen